A Storm of Emotions
A lot has been happening... I have never before experienced a whirlwind of emotions rushing ever so violently...
Emotional outbursts were never new to me. I've been known to possess the ability to be supercalifragelistically happy to someone in a greek tragedy in a jiffy. But lately I have experienced several, almost simultaeneous events that are messing up my mind, my limbic system to be exact, of how to react, what aura should be emanating from me, how I want people to see me...
The Audition
I have a dream that people may see as wasting my time... I want to be a star...
(Not a ball of hot gas though, connotatively or denotatively.)
I went to audition... My very first studio audition... I never imagined how it was going to be till I was there. After hours of waiting in line, I got on stage...
"Hi! I'm Rovi, 19 years old and I'm going to sing "The Warrior is a child" ...."
And Audie Gemora told me "Rovi, We're really rooting for you because you really fit the image we are looking for (the camera loves me, they say, I don't look thin at all...) but you sometimes skip keys... I'm really sorry... sayang..."
I was crushed, but nevertheless, I exited with my head up, smiling. I never let people see me sad... But my hear was crushed... But I told myself "quitters never win, and winners never quit" Nothing of this kind would be enough to make me let my dreams just fly away...
(I'm going to be enrolling in a summer workshop in ABSCBN, I'm not sure if singing, acting or theater, but one of those... and I'm going to do what I can to show the world I can do it!)
The Exam
I love getting high grades, who doesn't? If possible, the highest. I used to, back in the first year. But not so often nowadays. Let's just say I've lost my incessant determination. I'm still determined to graduate with honors... I'm just not THAT determined to get highest marks anymore.... Partly because I'm not able to do so anymore... I don't like expecting achievements... sour-grape... hehehe...
I love Genetics. I've loved it ever since. And I've had lots of fun in class... eventhough subconscious learning is a big part of it! =P
It was 8pm... I'm still in the SSWC... burning my mind and body to memorize the steps for our competition in the streetdance corps... My lab exam is tomorrow... I thought... and I haven't started reading even a page... damn... I reached home... without an ounce of energy left.. i ate my dinner, headed for bed and rested my tired and aching body...
I crammed last bits of information in the morning... and took the exam.. I know I did what I can... but I wasn't sure of all my answers... people were giving different solutions after he exams... and most was making sense... I thought "whatthe! I didn't study, why think about it!"
But when results came... I got the only perfect score in class.... WHOA.... me?! I was so happy... days of attentive listening payed off... I was so thankful to Him... He let me get the rest I needed and gave me the energy in the morning... ah... life has it's pleasures... and downfalls, as I have been expecting...
The Competition (practices!)
Being a president of an organization is no joke! A performing arts org, even so! Competition is nearing... the first ever we're joining outside of campus... and it's a big one...
A very big pain that is! The mind-wrecking job of looking for funds, coordinating people, and learning the dance routine! I'm just so very lucky I have very responsible co-execom people behind me! But still... Everything is just getting on my nerves! The very tiring practices really gets to you. But I'm happy, everyone in the competing tem has been working very VERY hard every practice session. And our coach Maui has helped us so much. We have less than two weeks... but I'm very proud of our group... I hope we will be able to do our best... that at the very least... and everything is up to Him...
My "Bestfriend"
We're on rocky terms right now... For reasons that only we should know... and only we would really understand... I Don't really know what would be the best... or if my course of action was correct... I'm just praying for what would be best for us... But still... I miss my best bud...
The NMAT
I GOT 99+! nuff said! I'm soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo happy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Grabe... I don't know how to react to everything that's happening right now... But till i know... all you're gonna see is the normal, bubbly, fun, smiling me... =)
Emotional outbursts were never new to me. I've been known to possess the ability to be supercalifragelistically happy to someone in a greek tragedy in a jiffy. But lately I have experienced several, almost simultaeneous events that are messing up my mind, my limbic system to be exact, of how to react, what aura should be emanating from me, how I want people to see me...
The Audition
I have a dream that people may see as wasting my time... I want to be a star...
(Not a ball of hot gas though, connotatively or denotatively.)
I went to audition... My very first studio audition... I never imagined how it was going to be till I was there. After hours of waiting in line, I got on stage...
"Hi! I'm Rovi, 19 years old and I'm going to sing "The Warrior is a child" ...."
And Audie Gemora told me "Rovi, We're really rooting for you because you really fit the image we are looking for (the camera loves me, they say, I don't look thin at all...) but you sometimes skip keys... I'm really sorry... sayang..."
I was crushed, but nevertheless, I exited with my head up, smiling. I never let people see me sad... But my hear was crushed... But I told myself "quitters never win, and winners never quit" Nothing of this kind would be enough to make me let my dreams just fly away...
(I'm going to be enrolling in a summer workshop in ABSCBN, I'm not sure if singing, acting or theater, but one of those... and I'm going to do what I can to show the world I can do it!)
The Exam
I love getting high grades, who doesn't? If possible, the highest. I used to, back in the first year. But not so often nowadays. Let's just say I've lost my incessant determination. I'm still determined to graduate with honors... I'm just not THAT determined to get highest marks anymore.... Partly because I'm not able to do so anymore... I don't like expecting achievements... sour-grape... hehehe...
I love Genetics. I've loved it ever since. And I've had lots of fun in class... eventhough subconscious learning is a big part of it! =P
It was 8pm... I'm still in the SSWC... burning my mind and body to memorize the steps for our competition in the streetdance corps... My lab exam is tomorrow... I thought... and I haven't started reading even a page... damn... I reached home... without an ounce of energy left.. i ate my dinner, headed for bed and rested my tired and aching body...
I crammed last bits of information in the morning... and took the exam.. I know I did what I can... but I wasn't sure of all my answers... people were giving different solutions after he exams... and most was making sense... I thought "whatthe! I didn't study, why think about it!"
But when results came... I got the only perfect score in class.... WHOA.... me?! I was so happy... days of attentive listening payed off... I was so thankful to Him... He let me get the rest I needed and gave me the energy in the morning... ah... life has it's pleasures... and downfalls, as I have been expecting...
The Competition (practices!)
Being a president of an organization is no joke! A performing arts org, even so! Competition is nearing... the first ever we're joining outside of campus... and it's a big one...
A very big pain that is! The mind-wrecking job of looking for funds, coordinating people, and learning the dance routine! I'm just so very lucky I have very responsible co-execom people behind me! But still... Everything is just getting on my nerves! The very tiring practices really gets to you. But I'm happy, everyone in the competing tem has been working very VERY hard every practice session. And our coach Maui has helped us so much. We have less than two weeks... but I'm very proud of our group... I hope we will be able to do our best... that at the very least... and everything is up to Him...
My "Bestfriend"
We're on rocky terms right now... For reasons that only we should know... and only we would really understand... I Don't really know what would be the best... or if my course of action was correct... I'm just praying for what would be best for us... But still... I miss my best bud...
The NMAT
I GOT 99+! nuff said! I'm soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo happy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Grabe... I don't know how to react to everything that's happening right now... But till i know... all you're gonna see is the normal, bubbly, fun, smiling me... =)
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